Sad

Woohoo!  I'm drunk!  Plastered on Absolut so much so that I can't even type.  Gotta love it.  Works great for controlling inappropriate feelings.  I'm so fucked.  Why me?  Why can't I just be happy?  It's not what I wanted.  Maybe I just don't know what I want anymore.

I feel a slime, either way.  Really tried not to use the 'L' word tonight and found it very difficult.

FemmeSmut

I just wrote femmesmut. Pretty darn hot femmesmut according to my beta. I... ok. I know where it came from, I'll be honest. It's good, it's sexy, it makes me hungry, it hurts so fucking much right now. I want to crawl into my cave and cry.