Antibody = Negative again

My latest COVID antibody test was negative again. Can't believe I've now spent six months swimming in it and haven't yet caught it. Either they're overestimating the ease of transmission or I'm cleaner/more anti-social than I thought because surely I'd have gotten it. People with COVID go to the hospitals. It's a pit of COVID virus. You might get lucky at the grocer and no one's got it on that trip, but people in the hospital are known COVID+. It's why they're there. And it's everywhere. Except for my lungs. I almost kinda want to get it now, just get it out of the way. Incidentally the strain going around now seems to be a lot less severe than the earlier strain. Still not 100% ok to get it, but it's much less lethal now.

Still working on the mental health. It's not a fun process and I'm just trying to let it flow through me. Strange trying to cast out and not feeling anything. Haven't done it in years and it gave me a skuller of a headache. If only I knew where Shar was these days I could ask her, but I can't find her either.

So with JR and Jeff gone, who's gonna complete the three. Mitchy... Mitch, I'm Calling To You. If you get that little FoN reference, you too could have been my friend.

Still going to piss on Coverdale. Someone has to take up the reigns.

Keeping Busy

Got me some "exercises" from the hospital chaplain today. There's a few I can't even look at yet, and one I've already been doing on my own. I don't often head into the chapel on campus but some of these more practical things might help. I really don't want to go see a shrink. Been there, done that, spent most of my childhood with professionals messing about in my brain. In the end I gotta fix me anyway, nothing anyone else can do. He gave me a packet on spousal loss, which... I dunno. That's kinda weird.

Didn't sleep well again. Got about three hours. Walked around town for another three. It's not so bad when I'm moving or distracted. Had to come home and start getting this place in order. Got the floors vacuumed and mopped, steam cleaned the carpets. Still a ton of laundry to do. I ate today. Got to take care of the basics.

Still no luck finding a VHS machine. Even tried to buy one at the Goodwill. No luck. Might hit HW6N tomorrow, see if my thrift store up there has anything. I really want to watch this 'Zeppelin!' tape again. It was such a bitch to get it to me in the first place, FedEx fucked up shipping the package and it took forever, both of us tracking it. Then my mom got it when I was out for the day, asking me about a package from Toyota.

Oh, Whumptober needs to get updated. Then back to the laundry. At least being busy means I'm not crying.