Visit

J came for a visit this morning, which was very nice and sweet. He stayed with me for a bit until I had to get up and start the day. A lot longer than he normally does. Still very brown feeling and I'm not sure what to make of it. I don't even like brown generally but it feels like comfort. At least it doesn't smell of cigarettes anymore. Got sad after he left and was mopey for a bit. William didn't go to work today and he noticed I was sad but I couldn't tell him why. Some things just are not meant to be shared.

Cold front moved through an hour ago or so, dropping us to freezing temperatures. Has given me a headache. One more hour before I can go home.