Theory of LJ
Jan. 5th, 2009 12:18 amWell, what has this become? I've been reading over my last journal entries. It's not really a 'journal' journal, nor the cliff notes of my daily drudgery. Just random stuff that I get down while I sit at the keyboard. You think after five years I'd have a bit more of a grip as to what to do in this place.
Today I:
Fought with William
Hid in my room
Read some fiction
Worked on the quilt
Tried to be normal around Ron (the ex-3rd partner)
Forced William to bathe
Went to Reet's for supper
Came home and drank
Talked to RA
Ended up being more confused about my life than ever
So: One lost, confused no-longer-little girl for hire. Possibly headed out to Calabasas to straighten my head out. It won't happen, who the hell am I kidding, but the offer was nice anyway. Payment for taking Rory for that week I guess. Why do I always feel it's payback? Can't I just go on something without digging to find some subversive level to it all? Am I that bitter and cynical?
Today I:
Fought with William
Hid in my room
Read some fiction
Worked on the quilt
Tried to be normal around Ron (the ex-3rd partner)
Forced William to bathe
Went to Reet's for supper
Came home and drank
Talked to RA
Ended up being more confused about my life than ever
So: One lost, confused no-longer-little girl for hire. Possibly headed out to Calabasas to straighten my head out. It won't happen, who the hell am I kidding, but the offer was nice anyway. Payment for taking Rory for that week I guess. Why do I always feel it's payback? Can't I just go on something without digging to find some subversive level to it all? Am I that bitter and cynical?